im back!!

Long time no update due to my laziness. haha.
lots of things happen last month.

for sure i did go cinema for movies.
movies i watched recently :
1. Ninja
2. Cloudy with a Chance of Meat Ball
3. Jennifer's Body
4. Poker King
5. Chaw
6. Sorority Row

Celebrate birthday with 2 frens that is Neo and Wivian last month.
For Neo's birthday, sorry to Henry, Xiaorou, Yenyee and Peizhi cause i did not make it to TGI Friday that day. Anyway, i went to TimesSquare the next day with Nick, Lau, Rynn, Neo and Minyee. Too bad Neo not feeling well that day so we went back straight after dinner at BBQ Plaza.
For Wivian's birthday, we went to Selayang Old Town to have a simple celebration with her.
People who attend that day:
1. me
2. Nick
3. Lau
4. Hash
5. Wivian
6. Chong
7. Beh


I went to Taylor College on 5th of October with my friends because Beh invite us to his serving class. Me, Rynn, Lau and Nick depart to Sunway Pyramid that afternoon. We have our lunch at Senjyu's Sushi.

After that, we depart to Taylor College meet up with Beh. We get to eat again at Taylor College. The food there was nice cause it is FOC. haha.

Other than that, i also went to Sunway Lagoon last month. haha. It has been long time i did not went there. Went there together with Rynn, Beh and Lau. Have a nive day there.

Celebrate Chinese Mooncake Festival last month. Went to Lau house that night. Have free food there. haha.
People attend:
1. Lau
2. Beh
3. Neo
4. Minyee
5. Rynn
6. Me
Something happen there. Capture few shots about the violent scenes there. You can guess what happen that particular day with this few pictures. Even girl - Minyee also do that kind of thing. Omigosh.

ahaha. This is all the things i can remember which happen on last month.

23 Sept 2009

Today actually is the school opening day for me after the 4 days weekends + raya break.
But the problem is i only have 1 lecture class today and it is a English lecture class.
It is impossible for me to drive to Sunway just for that bloody 2 hours of lecture class only.
Therefore i decided to skip class once again!

During the morning time, i have to wake up by 7am because me and my friends decided to go metropolitan park which situated near Kepong there for jogging. After fetching Beh and Wong, i received a message from Wivian, says that she got no transport to go there. Luckily i went out from my house late due to sudden stomachache, haha! Because of this, she got no excuses to "put us aeroplane". We reached the park around 8am and it is already quite sunny there =(. Instead of jogging, we walking most of the time and chit-chatting! We only jog for a short distance before went back home, haha! After that, we went to the hawker stall at Kepong there to have our breakfast. We only leave there around 10am if not mistaken. Stupid Wong pulled my pants on the ways back to my car and his stupid acts nearly pulls down my whole pants!

I get a short nap after went back home because at the noon i have a date with Rynn =3 . We went for the movie, G-Force at Cathay, The Curve. We have to reach there earlier to collect the ticket i book for the movie few days ago. Due to reach there so early, we went to Kim Gary to have our lunch. She order so many fries that until we cant finish the food ==. We try to finish all the food but still at the end i have to take away the fries. G-Force isnt that nice after all, haha! im looking forward to the MEAT BALL!! Look like very funny that cartoon.

During the night time, i go steambot at the Restaurant Shabu Shabu at Metroprima there together with Wong, Beh and Rynn. At first, there isnt any customer inside the shop during the moment we arrive there. I still thought that we went to the wrong shop after all. After we started our meal for a moment, the customer started to crowd the shop until it is fully seated! haha! The choices of ingredient for steamboat there isnt much, but still we get to eat until very full. We try to fill up any single space in our stomach especially Beh. He was eating non-stop that day even we already stop eating, hahaha! Due to some reason, Wong leave earlier than us. We are the first customer for that restaurant during the night time and the second last customer to leave the restaurant before it ends their business that day. You can see how long did we sit there and eat for that particular day.

Beh

Beh

after i eat

Wong

Look like eating sushi

the amount of tissue i use, haha!

one of the view i took at Metropolitan park

things happen lately

long time no update this blog about my own life already. haha.

What had happen lately in my life? It is just some common things.
Went to watch movie with friends.
-final destination 4 (it is sucks cause it SUCKS!!)
-the unbelievable (it is a bit scary cause it is real!)
-the ugly truth (it is damn funny)
-where got ghost (highly recommended for people who know Hokkien and chinese, like it most)
haha now only i realise that actually i did not go with friends for those movies. Instead of going with friends, i went to those movie with her, Rynn. I myself also duno why become so close with her again lately. Missing the baskin robins' chocolate mint ice-cream - the flavour i like most.

Rushing with assignments.
Now only i realise that degree's life was not as easy as i thought. Although im not studying in Science stream now, but still i feel that it has no different about that. I still get to submit alot of assignment in few weeks time. Damn it.

Yamcha and hang out with friends
phongyue went back to moscow but beh back from penang after his 3 month internship there. I know he wanted to go for movies as he miss alot of things when he was at penang. Too bad all of us are busy with our school stuffs. I am busy with assignments and others are busy preparing for their finals. Good luck to them here, haha! But still we manage to go out and have a drink or so called yamcha during the night time.

救生圈 - 张起政

我猜你和他应该是闹得很激烈

否则你不会任性的亲吻我的脸

每次在爱情里搁浅我才有幸被你想念

原来忠诚不过是爱情最致命的弱点

为什么我只配当你的救生圈

在你和他之间隐约的再浮现

若有一天我也深陷

谁来给我及时的救援

为什么我只配当你的救生圈

永远都等不到靠岸的一天

为了让你脱险飘在海面

你总是忽略了

我猜你和他应该是爱得很激烈

否则你不会忘了曾亲吻我的脸

每当你回到他身边你就不会对我想念

原来忠诚不过是爱情最致命的弱点

为什么我只配当你的救生圈

在你和他之间隐约的再浮现

若有一天我也深陷

谁来给我及时的救援

为什么我只配当你的救生圈

永远都等不到靠岸的一天

为了让你脱险飘在海面

为什么我只配当你的救生圈

在你和他之间隐约的再浮现

若有一天我也深陷

谁来给我及时的救援

为什么我只配当你的救生圈

永远都等不到靠岸的一天

为了让你脱险飘在海面

你总是忽略了

飘在飘在飘在海面

是我太傻了

你很愛他 - FIR

最近听回这些旧歌
发现它的歌词很好
哈哈
有点适合我最近的心情
呵呵

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當你決定 你要離開我
我沒有說什麼　就當作你自由
有好幾次我都想挽留　
苦求也沒有用　就當作是寂寞
因为我能明白　他的溫柔　對你是種解脫
就坦白告訴我　誰是你的最愛

其實你很愛他　對我的懲罰　說你沒有想他　是可憐我吧
我已沒有藉口　只能放手　不能奢求　你說愛我
其實你很愛他　他很溫柔嗎　其實你很想他　就說出口吧
我已不想多說　嗚住耳朵　不想再次聽到你說　你很愛他

有好幾次我都想挽留　
苦求也沒有用　就當作是寂寞
因为我能明白　他的溫柔　對你是種解脫
就坦白告訴我　誰是你的最愛

其實你很愛他　對我的懲罰　說你沒有想他　是可憐我吧
我已沒有藉口　只能放手　不敢奢求　你說愛我
其實你很愛他　他很溫柔嗎　其實你很想他　就說出口吧
我已不想多說　嗚住耳朵　不想再次聽到你說　你很愛他　　
你很愛他

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nice weekend

29 Aug 2009

i went to Full House at NiuZeXiu today. Actualy wanted to go there so long ago and today finally i make it become reality. haha!

I went there with Rynn, Neo and Minyee. The environment there really not bad, alot of couple like to go there have their meal.

after that, we went to sunway pyramid to "gai gai". Since that "Soh Po" Minyee so long never back to KL, just bring her go sunway pyramid walk walk lo. hahaha!

We went to sushi king after tired of walking there. Do not know whose idea was that, suddenly we started to play with wasabi! We mix the sushi with alot of wasabi and each of us has to eat one. Even the worker there also laugh at us for what we going to do. It is hard to describe the feeling when u eat a sushi with alot of wasabi. If u want to know that feeling, u should go n try urself and it is feeling good~

31 August 2009

I went to The Curve for a movie with Rynn and her cousin sister today. The Orphan really nice and it really did scare off alot of people but too bad it does not including me. Still looking forward more to Final Destination. Hope that it will be much more scarier than The Orphan. haha.

After the movie, we went for dinner at Dragon-i. hehe. Finally i get the chance to order the piggy-shape pau. Too bad i forgot to take the picture =(.

A lot of things happen lately which make me happy and unhappy. haha. Will tell u all more if got chance.

2nd month~

It is going to be second month after that particular day. haha. Time passed so fast!

It is also already 1 week past since the last time i contact with her. Because of some minor problem, we decided not to contact anymore. I do not know whether that is good or not. Wonder how is she now. Just know that she just finish her exam and she gonna go for the trip already..
Well, i cant do anything cause it is non of my business anymore although i know that myself still care about her.

Currently just finish the 1st week at Sunway University College. I like this school. haha! The life here were not as bad as i thought before. Will be busy for some moment. Glad that finally im used to it without contact her. Although i wanted so much to ask her about her current situation but i will not let myself do that because i think that the situation now without contacting each other is good for her and myself currently.

More and more premiere waiting for me, haha!
25 August - Kungfu Cyborg (机械侠）
1 September - Final Destionation 4
Looking forward to all this premiere! Thx Ron for always giving me free ticket to those premiere! hehe.

生气我自己

我很气！
气我自己！
为什么那么多事？
说那么多有用吗？
管人家的事干嘛？
太的空没事做了是吗？
笨到死！
人家的事不需要你去担心，
不需要你多管闲事，
不需要你说什么，
因为都是没用的！
算了吧
别再去管人家的事了
管多了
对自己也没好处
真的很气我自己！！

Surprising

haha! once again i do not know i should be happy or sad today.

All of this started yesterday. Yesterday i receive a call from Ron asking me whether i wanna go for the movie - UP today and he said can bring 1 friend together with me. For sure i trying to find someone lo. I try to log in my msn to look for my friends and i saw her online-ing. Just for fun, i try to date her to the movie la. Why i said just for fun? It is because before this i did try to date her few times but ended up everytime also fail, haha. Surprisingly, she told me that she is going to the movie! For sure i feel happy la although i know it mean nothing, it is just a simple date between 2 friends.

Well, the date today started quite smooth. She managed to get back home earlier and so i can meet her up earlier! What is more is i managed to find to the way to Mid Valley Megamall! ahaha! For all the friends know me quite well, u all should know that i cant recognise road although i drive almost everyday. i did what i promise her that is treat her for dinner. We went to a japanese restaurant (Zenmai) for dinner cause i remember one of my friends recommend me to go there before. Too bad the food she ordered not so suit her taste. haha! I managed to chat with her and get some updates of her during the dinner.

After that, we just hang around the shopping mall to waste our time cause we have to wait till 9pm for that movie to start. Of course, UP is a disney cartoon and it not so suit my taste and therefore it is a quite boring movie for me. What make me excited is Ron tell me next week gonna watch "Laughing Gor"!! ahaha! After the movie, i send her back to her house and on the way we did chat. Throughout the chat, i can know that big posibility that she will go to Langkawi with that guy and honestly i am very worry about that. Deep in my heart, i wanted to tell her so much that i hope that she will not going to the trip but i know i cannot do that because i am nobody to her now, i am just a normal friend to her now! Furthermore, i promise myself something that do not let me to do that.

haha! i felt happy today because finally i managed to date her out with me alone again after 2 months i think, although last time i meet her is 1 month ago. But that time she is with her sister and she is not alone with me. Well, i felt sad because i can know that big posibility she is going to that trip. Thinking of asking her not to go but my position now do not let me do that. I also do not know what should i do now. Really very worry about her just that i do not know how to tell her all that. Even i did tell her all that, i think she also will not listen to me cause i am just a nobody to her! haha. I think what can i do is just pray for miracle to happen. Other than that, i really do not what should i do in order she will not going for that trip. Just pray hard that she will not go ba. hahaha! Maybe she will think that i very busy body but i do not care anymore. Just wanna to tell u, i still care about u and i hope u also will care about urself and do not let those that care about u dissappointed.

给离去的你

今天，我终于看到了你的部落格
虽然看不到我想看的
但至少我知道了一些你从没亲口告诉过我的事情。

最近几天
我都有和你联络
也得知你最近的事情
知道说你今晚会和他出去
我当然不希望会发生
不过我很清楚我没那种资格
毕竟现在和以前不一样了
也知道说你很想他
可是你并不知道
每次你告诉我你在想他的时候
我有什么感受
当然我很希望现在的你会很开心
所以我并没告诉你我的心情
当你告诉我月尾你想跟他一起去Langkawi
我整个人真的傻了
我不知道为什么会那样
很想阻止
但却不能也没资格那样做

看了你的blog后
我发觉了说
其实你早在和我分手的那天
就和他在一起了
我还傻傻的一直试着去挽回
我也知道了说
你对他的感觉比你以前对我的感觉深多了
的确
到今天为止
我都还有想挽回的念头
但今天过后
我想那念头因该会被慢慢地放弃了
因为我知道说真的是没可能了

很高兴你曾经有想过和我到老
我也很对不起你
因为我骗了你
还记得你问过我谈恋爱时会不会以结婚为前提
我当时答你说不会
其实我在骗你
因为当时我怕太诚实会吓跑了你

真的很想你明白
你没必要去内疚些什么
你并没有错
我也没怪过你这样做
因为我明白我不是好人
也不值得你爱我
所以你别再说我很好了
也别再因为我而感到内疚
并不值得你为了我而内疚
也不值得你为了我而伤心

你真的教会了我一些东西
因为你
我真的很少骂粗口了
我也很少去咒人去死之类的话
因为你
我知道了其实爱情需要人陪
而不是各忙各的
因为你
我真的了解了什么叫珍惜
什么是别等到失去了才懂得珍惜

其实你让我做了很多我第一次做的事
第一次
我载自己的女朋友上课放学
第一次
为了等你放学
在你学校门口等了三小时
第一次
在一个月里
去了戏院至少四次
第一次
两个人去唱k
第一次
女朋友陪我过生日
第一次
去戏院看爱情片还是日本戏
而且还是整个戏院里只有四个人而已
第一次
想去哪里都会有人陪
第一次
有人吃东西时特地带了包纸巾去
因为他知道我容易流汗
第一次。。。
那么多的第一次
这应该是为什么我那么放不下你的原因吧

到现在我还在责怪我自己
当初
为什么我不会好好珍惜你
为什么我不疼你多一点
为什么我不紧张你多一点
为什么要学人家扮神秘
为什么不经常陪你
为什么我没尽力去满足你想要的
很多的为什么
都怪自己拥有的时候不会去珍惜
到了现在才会后悔
都已经没用了

虽然很不愿意
但是失去了你
已经是事实
怎样也改变不了
你已走了，变了
不管我怎样做还是改变不了
我答应你
我会做会在你心中以前的我
面对什么问题时都会笑着解决的我
我答应你
我会把对你的爱慢慢地藏进心里的最深处
你已经离开了
我也会学着慢慢离开
别再担心我
别再因我而感到内疚
因为我不是好人
不值得你那样做

反而是你
要过的开心点
要好好的照顾你自己
希望你从今以后
你每一天都会过的快快乐乐

Ponteng again~

28 July 2009 (Tuesday)

Actually today got class from 2pm -5pm. i enter the class around 2.10pm. BUT someone cheat me go out from the class and then started to drag me go out with him. He even do not allow me to go in to the class! WHO that someone? Sure is Ron la!! Luckily im not the only and first victim this time. The first victim this time is my ah jie, Chuee Leng! ahahaha! Laugh si me! She kena block by Ron before she manage to go in to the class. Both of us kena drag by Ron go sing k at Neway at OneU.

Ron

Chuee Leng

They 2 look like couple la~

Feel like im lamp post! ><

random shot~

I hate jc

ahaha. really duno y im so stupid. just few messages from her then i will start thinking that i still got chance. just because no one free to accompany her, then only she will find me. I know about all this but still i cant control myself from thinking that i still got chance. What the hell happen on me! I really hate myself so much now! Stop dreaming la! It is not gonna to happen that way for now n even in the future! People just thought you as a friend, for what u wanna treat her so good? I hope i know the answer! Do not ever let urself be hurt anymore! Can i do that? I really not sure about that... I got alot of things wanna share with her, but will she care? Maybe she will, but the type of care is just a normal caring from a normal friend! Why am i taking it so serious?
Because i am so so so stupid! Really hate myself so much!

1 Month~

Time passed so fast and it is already 1 month after that day.

Hmm alot of things have changed after that day until now, yet there is still something remain unchanged after so long. ahaha.. that is my so called "stupidity"! I also duno myself waiting for what everyday. Maybe i already used to it and waiting become part of my life for the past 1 month. Actually what am i waiting for since i know it is imposible for that to happen. Haiz. I really duno what am i waiting for and that is why i say myself stupid..

I feel quite relieve after knowing that her life was better than last time. Duno why i will feel like that. Maybe the time changing me slowly. Recently i do not like to stay alone, feel like want to escape from something so much. If there is anyone that call me to go out, for sure i will not turn them down cause i really do not want to stay alone. Maybe scare that myself will think too much again. But i know it is not a suitable way to do like that because it is imposible for me everyday everytime also got people available to hang out with me. Honestly, sometime i also do not know why and what am i doing. Something seriously wrong with me i think.

After study at HELP few months, now i decide to transfer to Sunway because of few reasons. Of course what i tell all my friends is 1 of the reason, but there are still some other reason for it. I just want to change to a new environment and start all over again. I know i should know do like that but other than that i do not know what else should i do. Of course i will miss all the new friends i know at HELP cause everyone of them treat me so nice! Just like last time i decide to transfer to HELP from UTAR, i also miss all my foundation friends so much. Until now i still miss the foundation life with u all! Seriously that foundation year was my happiest year until now. Miss the time with peizhi, yenyee, xiaorou, minyee, neo, huiboon, henry, rannie, whole TE2 and TE4. You all really gimme alots of good memories that year. And now im going to transfer again to Sunway if they accept me la~ , i also miss my new gang at HELP la. Although i have been with them for a short period but there are already alot good memories with them cause they really nice to me. Hope we can stay connected even if i really transfer to Sunway this August.

The time really pass so fast n now it is already 1 month. I also slowly get use to be alone already.
People! Wish for me that i will do better for the 2nd month and i can find myself and the place that suit me faster after i transfer to Sunway. Honestly, i duno that my decision to transfer to Sunway is correct or not but i am sure of 1 thing, that is i can learn what i want to learn at there and it is web programming!! I have been trying my best to force myself not to think abt her anymore and force myself do not interrupt her happy life now anymore.. i cant say i can do all of that perfectly but at least i can do 60-70% of it! For now, i admit that im still waiting there but i know clearly that it is no point for me to wait anymore cause something will never happen. Instead of waiting, there is something more suitable for me to do and that is wishing her to be more and more happy after this. I wonder i will be like this until when.. I really wanna to get rid of this faster but i do not know how to do that. It is hard!

Well it is already 1 month so fast, but still i need to keep going and wish that i will do better in the following day, week, month n year!! I think for all the friends know me for long time, none of them will believe i will be so loyal cause it never happen before n this is the 1st time! Do not ask me why cause myself also do not know about the reason! ahaha!!

No More 'P'!!

ahaha!! Finally i m no more 'P' driver! i already change my 'P' license this morning!!
For those who know me well, i never stick the 'P' sticker on my car although im stil a 'P' driver last time. ahaha! duno y i hate 'P' so much.
For all my friends, u all no need scare so much whn sitting in my car because im pro driver already~ ahaha. Although i drive very safe, but duno y some of my friends still say that i drive dangerously.. haiz~

Another Busy Day?

yesterday 22/07/2009, start classes at 10am in the morning. Damm lazy to go to the class cause it is BIT 103 intro to database system class which have to meet Sandy for 2 hours . But still i have to go because if i skip her class again, i will be barred for the exam! Haiz, i start my journey to HELP by 10am, purposely to be late, and reached there around 10.30am. Nothing special happen in the class as it is such a boring class.
After that, go have some food with my friends and continue the BIT 106 intro to java class by 2pm. Ron messaged me by 12pm and say that he will depart in 1pm and ask me go skol earlier because got some assignment question wanna ask me. By the time he reached, it is almost 2pm already. This is what he mean by will reach earlier...
During the class, Ron keep ask me to accompany him to go for the movie, The Proposal, which showing at 9pm at Tropicana City Mall. For sure i dont wanna go with him for the movie cause the movie is about LOVE de la! later people thought that me n him are gay! i have try my best to reject his offer but still end up i accompany him to the movie due to i kesian him have to go alone for the movie.
Actualy is worth alot for me lo cause he treat me dinner n i get to know what did MyFM cruiser normally do. It is the 1st time i go for a movie sneak peak. The movie will be release after 1 week bt i get to watch it 1 week earlier than the first showtime. MyFM cruiser gave out alot of gift before the movie and one of the gift they given out was so attractive. It is a couple necklace and i wanted it so much! ahaha!
1 more thing, i get to c Mr Teh n Mr Tian dinner at Subway at Tropicana City Mall during Ron give out the ticket to the winner. ahaha! too bad i did not go HI with them... I also get to know who is Ron ex ex gf! ahaha!! some funny thing happen in the cinema when the movie was showing~
hmm.. today i go out since early in the morning, which is 10am, and when i reach home it is almost 12am liao.. 14 hour hang at outside make me really tired n feel like going to sick soon cause started to having flu. After bath still have to finish up my Java assignment because have to pass up the next day. after finishing all the stuff, it is already 1am+ liao.. haiz~

A busy Day

18 July 2009

Today is a saturday. Hmm before this, i wanted to wish my friend, kiki because today is her birdthday! Happy birthday kiki! ahaha..

Today 9am-2pm got replacement class for BIT 106 Introduction to Java. i only managed to wake myself up by 8.30am and after prepared all the things, it was after 9am only. i reach school there by 9.30am due to the traffic jam! i tot im late enough for the class, who know there is someone more late than me! who else? Ron la! He enter the class only by 11am! deng! He so yeng la~ Not only that, Mr Kok give us 15 minutes break after halfway of the class. Me, Ron n Aaron went to secret recipe to eat cake n go starbuck for coffee, lol. Instead of 15 minutes, we 3 use nearly 1 hour i think to hang outside only then enter the class!

I wonder why Ron like to touch me! He feel so gay to me bt not for Aaron! Why?!! Is it because i look gay? NO!! Im not gay OK!! Ron, please let me go.. i beg u.. He keep wanted to hold my hand! Ishh! so disgusting! Anyway, although he is gay for me, bt still he is a nice friend!

We went to the cinema for Ice Age 3 after the class! Yeah! Finally i watched Ice Age 3! It was damm funny la! Some scene of Ice Age 3 make me feel like im watching chocolate advertisement ==.

After movie, we went to Dragon-i at 1U to have their lunch, my breakfast, lol! It is the 1st time i enter Dragon-i, so pity myself, haiz~ i wanted to try the pig shape bun so much but end up i did not ordered it. haiz~ now so regret. Ron paid for all the bill for movie n lunch at Dragon-i cause he is dai lou ma. ahaha thx for the treat le~ Actually have to pay back him de but since he forget already thn just diam diam lo, lol! Hope he will not see this la~

After that, we started our journey to Bon Odori from 1U. It is the 1st time also for me to go to the Bon Odori. Three of us also duno how to go there, luckily Ron know how to see the map! He even told me that by knowing how to see map can easily kao lui! AHAHA! lmao! It is so hard to find parking there. After go around that place for few times, then only i manage to find a parking slot.. It was so crowded there! A lot girls wearing kimono to there! Lenglui n lengzai! wahahaha! see till u drop, lol. Here is something weird. After Ron reach Bon Odori there, he wanted to find his friend and it is the 1st time he ask me n Aaron go walk ourself 1st later only gather back. I wonder he do not want to let us see who. It is his ex i think. After that he look like so down but we do not know what happen to him. Maybe is because of his ex ba~ Cheer up dude!

We leave that place around 9pm i think. During the way back home, we take wrong way and wasted alot of time! ahaha! I only managed to reach home after 11pm.. Today can say i out for one whole day and it is so tired but still i only fall sleep by 4am. ahaha! something wrong with me i guess.. and 1 meal again for me today...

3rd week

it is already 3rd week since that day. Time passing so fast! A lot of things have been different already.
But im stil the same. Duno why. I know that now I, myself mean nothing to her already yet i still miss her alot. ahaha. Really duno what had happened to me. I did try alot of methods to let myself forget about her. No matter what i did, my mind still will thinking about her. This is 1st time in my life that i cant forget a gal after break up for 3 weeks! am i changing? is it good or bad? no one know...
One thing for sure, i did changed alot because of her. I still remember that before i met her, rude words seem to be very common come out from my mouth! ahaha. She did told me that she dont like people scold rude words or even curse people n i really did changed to the way she want! This is good!
As u can c, i still did think about her. Nowaday, i have been trying to make myself busy so that i will not think about her so often. Luckily, i have to pass up alot of assignment this few weeks so i got something to busy with! What i worry is, after all the assignment have been submit, then what else can make me busy?
HAIZ!!!!

Happy OR Sad??

today is quite complicated for me. yesterday i got try to date her n she did not gimme any accurate answer and i jz take it as a joke from her. today noon i received her msg to go for movie n i feeled vry happy coz is is imposible for it to happen again. although that time im eating with group of my friends, i just told them i got something urgent n need to leave.
At last after two week plus, i manage to date her out again! At last after two week plus, i can talk with her face to face! deep inside my heart i feel very happy.
BUT i can feel that something is difference. the way she treat me, the way she talk to me, all diffenrent from the past. i think it is all because that she already put down me. At the same time, i feel saddd deep inside my heart.
what happen to me? ahaha.. i also duno.
after going back home, i force myself to ask her all the question in my mind. i was hoping for a positive answer but ends up all negative answer was given to me. ahaha. reali feel very sad. Why am i so stupid? Stupid because i still think that i still got chance but in reality i do not have any chances!
I have been try to lie to myself that i dun miss her anymore. i thought that time can help me forget her slowly bt as time pass on i found that i miss her more n more! How come it will be like this?!!
IM STUPID ENOUGH FOR NOT APPRECIATE HER UNTIL THE TIME SHE GONE!!!
REALY HATE MYSELF A LOT!

金牛座

金牛座和羊兒還蠻能和平相處，
牛牛和牛牛容易互相不爽，
和雙子成為好友的機率很大，
和巨蟹座則是有如家人一樣彼此照顧！
而牛牛和獅子可以說是死對頭，
和處女則是天生絕配，
和天秤是相當的對眼。
至於牛牛與天蠍間有著致命的吸引力，
與射手互相欣賞，
和摩羯志同道合，
和水瓶互相不滿，
和雙魚則是超級好朋友。

quite accurate de! for me la~

Again one Special Day

ahaha! today morning i skipped class again! second time for BIT 103 intro to database! sei lo~
hmm i feel vry bad actualy.. although i got went for the BIT 106 intro to Java class bt what i did in the class reali make me feel so bad. i kept fooling around with my other 2 friends in the class, did not reali concentrate on what Mr Kok teach.
Guess what? after the class i went to Low Yat Plaza with Ron and Aaron! Gosh! duno y i will follow Ron to go there! Ron wanted to go there jz to buy some skin product n he planned that after that we go to sing K at Red Box. Walao! sing K at night time wo! sure vry expensive la.. i tot i will be bankrupt after today but i was realy lucky! there was such an offer package for student to sing K at night time. It only cost RM17++ per head for student at night time! it include 2 drinks n buffet too! Nothing more to worry about, thus we just go in to the room and started our singing n eating section! It was very nice although it is 1st time for me to sing K with 2 "mat lat lou"! ahaha! hope they 2 will not see this~ =P
We sing from 6pm++ until 10pm++ and i think RM17 per head is worth it! I enjoy alot tonight and i hope that they 2 also feel that same as me la~ my 1st time experience for sing K at night time has been given to Ron n Aaron! =( sad!
Ron~ i will not say out what u trying to do to me today! ahaha! only u, me n Aaron know what u did! i treat u so good~ u know wat to do la~ XD
It is 11pm++ when i reached home. Tired! bt duno y i dun feel like sleeping so early. Haiz maybe in my mind there is something stil goin on and on. I wonder how to put aside the feeling of missing someone.

愛情不是選擇一個最好的，而是選最適合你的人.
** love is not choose the best one, love is choose the one that suit u most! **
it is quite meaningfull n i like it! ahaha. just to share with all my friends!

Random

nowaday i feel that i got alot of free time.. especially next week cause all my classes has been cancel due to all the lecturer need to go for training. haiz how should i spend my one week free time le? or should i say how would my next week life be? will it be interesting? boring? anyone to date with me? =D

i dun wan stay in the house for 1 whole week! i gonna die soon because of boredom!
Oops! few assignment need to pass up next week bt i still not yet start working on it! ahaha!

hmm.. my life started to return to the old way. started to adapt to the day without her although i stil miss her so much! Well, at least now i know that she is happier than before and i should not go into her life anymore. i think this is good for me n her and the last thing i can do for her. Hope she will be happy forever. now im waiting for the time to come as im tired alrdy. waiting for the time to come and then i will keep the love for her deep inside my heart.

to all my friends~
if any of u need someone to accompany, u can find me! cause im available for next week whole week! n i need someone to accompany me too! ahaha!

Meeting Old Friends

5th July 2009
today is quite a nice day for me. after plan for one night, i manage to date some of my old friends to come out for a gathering.
after fetching Seng Yong aka Boon and Cmin, we go to a new cafe at Selayang Jaya there to meet with PhongYue and her gf. We do have a nice chatting time there. Too bad some of them cant make it cause they are busy with own stuff. We hang at there from around 5 until 7pm. The time was passing so fast!
After Yap reach there with his "little friend", we went to the Stadt, a German Steak House in Metroprima to have our dinner together. Cmin's friend and Nick joined us at the dinner too. Happy to see so many of my friends gather together although the food there is damm expensive! However, it happen to be a very nice dinner for me because throughout the dinner we manage to make fun out of each others. Today is a special day for SengYong i think because he finally dare to ask for a gal's phone number in front of us! What a good start for him, ahaha!!
Other than that, i also learned some gossip from my friends too. Nick! Do u thought as as ur friends? Is this how u treat ur FRIENDS? sei hamsap kia! bought souvenier for gals bt nothing for us la! Still dare to ask me fetch u back home!! ahaha! joking nia! Hope u wont c this...

1 WEEK PAST

it is already 1 week past after what happen to me last friday..
time has pass so fast for me suddenly. i also duno how did i pass this 7 days! everyday everytime every seconds i also feel that something has been missing. i had been waiting my phone to ring everyday n hope that i can c the phone showing her name! some of my friends also ask me y am i so stupid...
everyday i also wonder i will continue like this until when. i had been trying hard in the past few days to forget her bt stil i cant make it. why??? Why did i stil miss her so much??
after having some chat with my friends who had been experienced this before, i think i found the answer. i know the reason for me to become like this and it reali need some times for me to recover. gambateh for me and everyone out there that is experiencing the same as me!

Guilty

haiz! i feel guilty for skipping my 2 lecture classes!
2/7/09 (Thursday)- i skipped BIT 103 Introduction to Database lecture class because i wanted to go lepak at One Utama so that i can put aside what matter me the most for the past few days.
i thought that i was the only one that did not went to the class.
today whn i went to school only i realise that Sheng Loong also skipped her class coz her class is damm boring!
3/7/09 (Friday) - actualy today my claz start at 9am n i manage to wake up by 8am. Due to my laziness n moodyness, i decide to skip BIT 101 Introduction to Information Technology lecture class too. so i went to continue my slp! ahaha! luckily i still got went to school in the afternoon for a tutorial class. however that class is suck for me! the lecturer make me wanna vomit! i hope she will not make up anymore after today class. if not i reali duno how to concentrate during her class!
haiz~ duno y nowaday i got no mood to study. feel like i lost interest to everything include my favourite video games and movie and etc. the most terible part is i only have 1 meal in 1 day! i reali wonder what had happen to me! i knw that is bad for health bt stil i dont have appetite to eat. haiz~ duno who can help me out with this? i gonna crazy soon~

thx to all my fren

today is my first time to "pak toh" with a GUY! AHAHA! i also cant believe it! My gay partner name is Ron! if u wan to view his pic, jz inform me. I will give u a link to his profile at facebook! ahaha! Due to he is half public person, so i cant reali show his pic to u all! This is wat he tell me la~ paiseh ><seriously, i reali thanks him so much for accompany me whole day cause he know im stil feeling sad about what happen last friday. Our dating started with a lunch at Little Taiwan. After that, we go for a movie - The Last House on The Left. the movie stil ok for me la. feel a bit weird coz 1st time i watch movie with a guy!! after movie, we stil hang around at 1U for 1 hour + ! It is a special date for me.

other than that, i also thx to yap n minyee who acc me to sing k last sunday although the bill is paid by me! >< i hav a nice day with u two. Remember do not tell others what is happening in the k room! if not i got no face to meet others liao!

not only that, i also wanted to thx neo for fetching me out last saturday for a movie at 1U. cause if i drove myself that day, i can imagine how dangerous it will be!! thx to nick for buying the ticket also cause he queue up for 2 hours jz to bought the tickets! thx to lau, shimin n karyan too for their presence during last saturday.

of course i will not 4got my big sister, Chuee Leng jie! ahaha! thx u for ur willingness to listen to me and try to comfort me although it is not success. thx for ahpo aka wivian for listen to me too!
thx to aaron law for trying to comfort me too!

Special thx to minyee again and Ching Yee although she is not vry close with me. Both of them trying to help me to rescue back the relationship. thx for their effort for helping me! reali appreciate what u two did although the relationship has become a memory for me.

With all my friends by myside, i think i will recover sooner. Reali thx for wat u all did. Reali! Without u all i think i m dead now!

Finally, thx Ron for the Chocolate! ahaha. i feel so wasted to eat the chocolate la~ i will try to keep it as long as i can! thx all my friends n i love u all~

For all those cant accompany me bt still my fren, i also appreciate u all too. Each of my friends also did bring me happiness before. U all make my life different by becoming better n better! Of course i still need a gf by my side de la!

One more thing, RON! im not gonna be a gay! i still love girls! ahaha. Anyway, thx for wat u trying to do today! Hope u c this!

Fallen Deep Down

Have been long time i did not have such feeling. After the incidents happen last friday (26 June 09), my life change from a happy life to a meaningless life. I think most of my friends will feel surprise that i also will have a so call saddish side.
Here is the story~
26 june 2009, it is a friday but it is not a normal one, for me. I continue my life as usual as i need to go to school in the morning. i did everything same as what i did at every friday of the past few weeks after school started. I just finished my 2nd class of that day by 12pm. As usual, i take out my phone n start to message my gf. Everything look vry normal on that day and i cant feel any danger sense. My gf told me she will be going out with her college friends tat afternoon. It is very normal for her to go out with her friends once a time. So i also did not think much about that. i continues my class until 5.30pm and i drove home straight away.
Since my gf was out, i use the free time to do my own stuff while waiting her. Oh Shit! I left my pendrive at school! few assignment was inside the pendrive! and i have to redo again jz bcoz of my carelessness. After some time, it was 9pm alrdy n she stil nt yt reach home. It is so unusual! i started to feel the danger sense since then. So i started to message her and even call her phone bt no respond was given. I started to worry and finally she reply my msg after few hours if i not mistaken. After few message was replied by her, so SUDDENLY i receive a message from her that she wanted to break up with me! IT ALL HAPPEN SO SUDDENLY. How am i suppose to react? AHAHA im crazy since that seconds onwards!
maybe u will wonder abt the reason she want to break with me, but due to some privacy so it is not so good to be posted at public.
Tell me if it is u, what will you do? how will u feel? how u going to face it?
I lost everything in just one day!